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| So, unfortunately I don't have a picture of him, but FINALLY on Tuesday, April 11 at 10:40pm I became an uncle to Logan Lee Milko. Proud parents Ryan and Amanda (my sister) Milko are exhausted at the moment but prouder than ever of their healthy bouncing baby boy. He weighed in at 8 lbs, 14 oz, much lighter than I expected (Mom won the bet). Speaking of which, I gotta say my parents are the first grandparents I know that are still blonde in the pictures when they held their first grandbaby, not gray-haired (so no jokes about being old now that their grandparents, the jokes are getting old). Gotta say, it's pretty exciting for them and the whole family!
PRAISE God for his gift of life! | | |
| So since I'm opening myself up here, haha...why not some clarity in the mess of thoughts I wrote yesterday? (Hope so, anyways)
Last night was once again Shekinah night, and as always, Shekinah was amazing and moving and powerful...Once again I found myself filled with the Spirit and just wanting to dance and sing my soul out for Christ (I SO wish I was that fired-up 24/7 ... it's a goal)....But back up the train a sec...WHY was I so fired up?
Lately I've been pretty down, those of you closest to me may or may not have noticed...Not intentional, and I certainly fear that I haven't insulted or hurt anyone by a sudden change in mood lately...But the reason is that I've been feeling confused by who I am lately (as discussed yesterday) but also that I'm sorta alone... (WOW, I feel selfish and dumb writing this...truth hurts!) Yes, I know I have a family and very close friends surrounding me, but sometimes something seems missing. God? In my head, the answer is obvious. But it took an event like Shekinah for me to feel that in my heart yesterday.
Why is that? God doesn't live in a church. His Spirit enters people on days other than Sunday. So why can't I get all riled up like I can for Shekinah? It's a good thing I can do it there...But the fact that I'm not the same person the other 29 days of the month make me feel lukewarm, and that scares me.
Time for a new resolution... To look to the cross and die with Christ. Confused by that answer? If you were at Shekinah, you won't be. In short, I want to die with Christ on the cross so that I may truly live. If something in my life is missing, if I'm not hardcore enough, if I'm not being extreme enough, here's the ultimate challenge: Die so that you may REALLY live for Christ.
Friends, as always, I need you to hold me accountable. | | |
| I'm bored...that must mean it's time for a new post, right?
So an update on life since it's been a while since my last real post...Since I last wrote, Swing Summit happened, which was AMAZING! So much fun that weekend...I think it took at least a week afterwards to recover from the lack of sleep and the physical drain that weekend took on my body, but it was worth it all!
Also, Panic Squad happened the other night...glad it's over, but they were worth it all...If you haven't seen them, you must, they're incredible. They have a show-me-the-funny guarantee upon booking, and they're not kidding...everyone at the show had a good time, so that was great!
My sister still hasn't had her kid yet...Today is her due date, and it looks as though she won't be having her kid on time...I'm surprised, most of us thought she would have had it by now...I feel really bad for her cause she's exhausted and getting sorta impatient...can you blame her?? Prayers are all welcome...Any day I'm gonna be an uncle ...But prayer for Amanda and Ryan would be appreciated.
On a more personal level...
A few things have been on my heart heavily lately, and I'm doing my best to sort them out...I know I'm smack in the middle somewhere of figuring out God's will for my life right now, but I'm sort of at the point where all my thoughts and feelings that I had just a little while ago are gone...and now I don't really know what to think about certain things in my life (sorry about the vagueness...some things I just don't care to discuss openly on the net). I guess what I'm trying to say is I feel like God is breaking me down so I can examine my core beliefs and values...If I'm right, then when God helps me build myself up again, it's into a true man of Christ. Example? k....
One of the things that has been on my heart lately has been integrity. I want (need, really) to be a man of integrity in God's eyes. This might mean doing things I don't want to do though, if God wants me to do them. Frustrating? YEAH! But how selfish of me to feel frustrated with God! And lately I always seem to end up in these little circles of wanting to please God but then realizing I either compromise my integrity by doing what I want to do or saving my integrity externally by doing things that please God but doing it with a guilty heart and thus compromising my integrity again! AHH
Does this random rambling make sense to anyone? It makes sense as I freewrite, but I just want to know thoughts on this...And please, challenge me, call me on things you disagree with...but please do so in person or at least privately somehow...Just throwing this out there to y'all. | | |
| 4 Jobs I've held
1) Milker for my parents' farm and for Triwest Farms
2) 2 different greenhouse jobs
3) lot attendant / detailer for Brett's Chev Olds
4) Current job...in construction for Agriline Construction Ltd.
4 Movies I could watch over and over again
1. Dumb and Dumber
2. The movie the boys are making with Matt's camera
3. Aladdin (what? what?)
4. the Matrix
4 places I have lived
1. Chilliwack BC
2. Victioria BC
3. I need to get out more...cause that's all
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T.V shows I'd watch
1. Hockey
2. Simpsons
3. Amazing Race
4. House
4 Places I've been on Vacation
1. Disneyland
2. Toronto / Hamilton / Niagra
3. Oregon
4. Alberta
4 Dishes I love (aka Mom's top 4 dishes)
1. Chicken Cashew Szeschwan (spell check, someone?)
2. Beef and Biscuit Casserole
3. Southwestern Lasagna
4. Tropical Sausage Dish (for lack of a better name)
4 Websites I visit daily
1. www.hotmail.com
2. www.xanga.com
3. www.canucks.com
4. www.google.ca
4 places I'd rather be / things I'd rather do
1. absolutely anywhere with friends
2. snowboarding
3. wakeboarding
4. swing dancing | | |
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